Goodbye, Stank Year!

(This blog is the English translation of this week’s primary blog, which was originally written in Spanish.)

I can hardly believe that this year is going to end in a few weeks. In some ways, this year felt like a hundred years, and in others, it felt like a month or two. I can hardly believe it. There were a lot of changes for me this year, and with so many horrible things, I’m not going to miss it. The vaccine is already approved, and I hope that the pandemic could be a bad memory six months from now. I don’t know, but I hope so.

Well, despite the bad things, this year was also something very good for me. My gender transition is going well, and I feel a lot, but I mean a lot better than … well, than ever. I’ve never felt more like myself, or more content with my true self. The changes to my body and mind also please me. At the end of the day, I can’t complain. This year treated me well. But I can’t say that about the entire year, because… well, you know why. This year is terrible, it’s cursed. My last twelve months, on the other hand, were good.

I don’t know what next year will bring us, and I’m not sure if the worst is now behind us. Maybe. I hope so. I don’t want to think about this year with tender nostalgia, nor with resentment either. For all the good and bad things, I just want to move on, with my life, with my job, and with Spanish.

This kind of thing always puts me in a bad mood, because I feel like a fraud in a way. My life is not that difficult, I have a stable job, a good salary, and I don’t have to go anywhere to do it, I just sit here at my desk at home, and boom, piece of cake. There are many, many people who are not as lucky as me. I know that my struggles are real, and also that my emotions are valid, but I can’t help feeling a bit guilty. The world sucks now, and while I’m allowed to be sad or happy for other reasons, it’s hard to forget about the state of the world at the same time.

A little while ago, I had to give myself permission to have my own feelings this year. The suffering of other people is a shame, and I lament it, but I can’t bear all the emotions of the whole world, and my victories and failures are real too, only smaller than those of the world. It was a good decision. I just have to remind myself of it every once in a while.

It’s a bit short, but I don’t have much to say on this blog, so I’m going to leave it. The next two weeks I’ll be on hiatus from a main topic. We are going to return the first week of the year. I hope you have a merry Christmas and enjoy your holidays. I’m going to rest, read a lot, and write even more.

Well, let’s see the numbers for this week.

Tuesday 12/08

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Reading: 3% of El Dragón Renacido, ~90 minutes
• Watching/Listening: 2 episodes of She-Ra, 1 episode Daniel San GMR, ~60 minutes
• Speaking: reading out loud, ~30 minutes

Wednesday 12/09

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Reading: 3% of El Dragón Renacido, ~90 minutes
• Watching/Listening: 2 episodes of She-Ra, 1 episode of Daniel San GMR, ~60 minutes
• Speaking: reading out loud, ~30 minutes

Thursday 12/10

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Reading: 3% of El Dragón Renacido, ~90 minutes
• Watching/Listening: 2 episodes of She-Ra, 1 episode of Daniel San GMR, ~60 minutes
• Speaking: reading out loud, ~30 minutes

Friday 12/11

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Watching/Listening: 5 episodes of She-Ra, ~120 minutes

Saturday 12/12

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Writing: 900 words written, ~90 minutes

Sunday 12/13

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Watching/Listening: 5 episodes of She-Ra, ~120 minutes

Monday 12/14

• Duolingo: 20 XP earned, ~0 minutes
• Reading: 3% of El Dragón Renacido, ~90 minutes
• Watching/Listening: 2 episodes of She-Ra, 1 episode of Daniel San GMR, ~60 minutes
• Speaking: reading out loud, ~30 minutes

• Total Duolingo: 140 XP, 0 minutes
• Total reading: 1/10 books read, 360 minutes
• Total watching/listening: 4 YouTube episodes and 18 television episodes watched, 480 minutes
• Total writing: 900 words written, 90 minutes
• Total speaking: reading out loud, 150 minutes
• Total Time: 15 hours 30 minutes

A good week. On Friday, I had a day off from work, because I needed to use up the hours before the end of the year or I was going to lose them. Watching She-Ra again has been a race and I’m going to be out of episodes very soon. It makes me a little sad, to be honest. I’ve only watched some seasons once, and they are reminding me of how good the show is. I don’t want to run out, but it’s inevitable. It’s a shame.

El Dragón Renacido is still very interesting, and has a different feel than the other books in the series. A good difference, I mean. Normally I don’t have much to say about the books I read, because they’re so long. I like the book, I’ll continue to read it. Next.

Wlp, I think that’s it for this week, I’m going to try to take advantage of the season and kick back, have a hot cider or two, and look forward to the new year. Have a good time, everyone, until next time, TTFN.